Have you ever given thought to God’s will for your life?
For the past several months I have been thinking about my relationship with God and finding his will for my life.
On the days I don’t work out side the home being a nurse, I try to get up early and have time with God, through reading and Prayer.
Some days work good and my plan goes exactly how I plan it to. We all know what happens when we don’t spend time with God first, our day flies by and we never get that time with God that is needed so much, to learn his perfect Will for our life.
God wants us to be in his perfect will.
Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of our mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you]. Romans 12:2
Several years ago I made a decision that, I feel led me out of God’s will for my Life.
Nine years ago I went back to school to become a register nurse. The hospital I worked at was eliminating LPN positions and I was an LPNat that time.
All LPN’S needed to make a
decision to either pursue an RN degree or function as nursing assistant, retire if you could, or be out of a job if the hospital couldn’t find another position within the hospital system. The plan was to keep only 2 LPN’S from each nursing unit.
If your decision was to school for your RN degree the hospital would pay for school plus pay your salary. If you chose full time school and chose not to work you would receive you full pay. If you chose school part-time and worked part-time you would receive the balance of your salary. Awesome deal right?
My choice was to concentrate on school and not work. Being in my mid fifties, I needed to devote all my time to studying so I could get my degree completed in a timely fashion.
It was tuff!!!!!
All my education was completed online through Excelsior College and completed the clinical part on a weekend in New York. Because I was an LPN already this was permissible to earn my degree, One thing for sure this was extremely hard and there was no room for even the tiniest error. By the grace of God I passed and earned my degree.
The entire time, even in the beginning I did not have peace in my heart. While I continued going through school the thought that I stepped out of God’s will continued to go through my head the entire time was in school.
Your probably thinking why I didn’t stop? there were a few reasons.
1. If i didn’t complete and achieve my degree I would have been responsible to pay all the money that it cost back.
2. I wouldn’t know where I would work because I wasn’t one of the LPN’S that would be be kept.
I should be doing what I love, using the gifts God has given me for creating items, crafting with my grandchildren, decorating my house, Sharing my creations with others and helping others. I know God has more plans for me and you too.
I continued to push forward.
I starting orienting in my new position that took about 3-4 months and was then on my own. I have not been really happy since I became an RN. I should have went with what my heart was telling me that, I was heading into an area that I believe God did not want me to go. I had many days of frustration crying, and tons of stress.
A year and a half ago I developed vertigo (episodes of dizziness) that hung on for a year and thats when my husband and I decided that I should transition to part time, two days a week for work.
Health is more important you cant get your health back once its lost
I got out of God’s will and I am miserable because of it. Two days a week is better however I am much happier working at home on my projects and sharing them with others and being available to my husband, children and grandchildren.
In closing I hope this has helped you in some way. What I learned from this is if you don’t have peace in your heart regarding your decision take more time to think about it before making a decision. Talk with a trusted friend or someone that helped you through a decision in the past. If you don’t have peace in your heart about a decision you are making take time to pray.
God wants to help us with our decisions. God wants us to seek him first in every decision. In the end we will be much happier with the outcome.
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